Kimi-chan no Nikki

Christmas Songs

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Thu, 17 Dec 2009 04:42:07 GMT

Over the next couple posts, I'd like to do something like I did in the last one and share a few other songs that still have some seasonal magic in them for me. Not all of them are strictly Christmas songs, or even holiday songs at all, but they still make me feel... If you want, give them a listen on youtube if you haven't heard them, or if you have, uhm...listen to them again! ^ ^

This one more folks have probably heard:

Watch/listen here!: www.youtube.com/watch?v=nOp4NAq6EHI

And you asked me what I want this year,
And I try to make this kind and clear,
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days.
'Cause I don't need boxes wrapped in strings,
And designer love and empty things,
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days.

So take these words and sing out loud,
'Cause everyone is forgiven now.
'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again.

I need some place simple where we could live,
And something only you can give,
And that's faith and trust and peace while we're alive.
And the one poor child who saved this world,
And there's ten million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them...

So take these words and sing out loud,
'Cause everyone is forgiven now...
'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again.

I wish everyone was loved tonight...
And somehow stop this endless fight...
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days...

So take these words and sing out loud,
'Cause everyone is forgiven now.
'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again.

'Cause tonight's the night the world begins again...

Class ends, and holidays are coming...

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Fri, 11 Dec 2009 19:48:25 GMT

Well, the semester has ended, and with it, at last, I graduate. ^ ^ I'm still going to be attending one more semester here in order to finish out what I need for an Associate's in Sociology, but as it stands now, I've completed the requirements for degrees in general studies and applied technical studies (which is pretty much just a fancy term for general studies XD). I failed my math final pretty hard, but with my other grades in it, I still scraped out a low B, and I managed a B in my biology class as well. Everything else was A's.

Holidays are coming, and as with every year, they inspire thought and reflection, for better or for worse. I'm not very...vocal? in my Christmas celebrations, typically. Most holiday songs annoy me anymore, and you'll never catch me singing them to myself. I see this season as a consumer/business opportunity anymore, and it's sad that that's what it's honestly been reduced to for most. For others, it's just a routine, "Oh, it's Christmas again, better go buy folks some stuff..."

There was magic once. Now and then, a spark still lights, but it's rare...and nothing quashes it out faster than those damn overplayed songs and the fake, forced "Christmas spirit" that commercialism shows and tries to inspire. "Be happy! Be nice to each other! It's Christmas; that's what you're expected to do!" No. No, it isn't. That's not Christmas. Christmas is supposed to be a celebration of the peace and love given all year 'round, not a time when people put on fake smiles and play nice just because Santa might not bring them the things they want otherwise. Maybe I'm cynical, maybe I'm jaded, but I feel that holiday feelings shouldn't need the overplayed songs, don't need the decorations or the presents that are given "just because"...those things cheapen it.

Everyone, if you're celebrating a holiday this season, do it honestly, and not just because it's a "routine". And just maybe, those small sparks can glow again together.

I sit at home, look out my window...
Snow all around, I hear a sweet sound.
I see Santa Claus, dream of a sleigh ride,
And angels sing a song...

Tonight your eyes shine like a Christmas dream,
Silent night, you've found your way to me...
Eyes shine like a Christmas dream,
Your light inside my heart...

Inside your smile, my world is turning...
Sweet scent abounds, all candles burning.
You paint the Christmas stars on painted heaven,
And angels sing a song...

Tonight your eyes shine like a Christmas dream,
Silent night, you've found your way to me...
Eyes shine like a Christmas dream,
Your light inside my heart...

Listen here: www.youtube.com/watch?v=VSbU6Hnxc1E

Had to post, too uncanny! XD

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 19:11:20 GMT

So I was just messing around with this meme, and this is the order the songs came up in. Some of them actually made me laugh, and others made me O_o with appropriateness.

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question, type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button.
6. Don't lie!

Opening Credits: (OC Remixes) The Legend of Zelda - A Storm in the Desert [Oooh. ^-^]

Waking up: Magic Knight Rayearth - Mokona-Ondo de Pupupu no Pu [I would totally put that song on to get moving to. XD]

First Day at High school: Oingo Boingo - Try to Believe [Yup. Just keep trying...]

Falling In Love: Fushigi Yuugi - Wakatte Itahazu [AHAHAHAA I'm Miaka?! XD]

Fight Song: Silent Hill 2 - The Reverse Will [Fightin' ma own demons!]

Breaking Up: Serial Experiments Lain - Duvet [...Wow. This is...just...yeah.]

Prom: Sorcerous Stabber Orphen - Last Kiss [Hm. This bodes well. ^ ^;]

Graduation Song: Slayers - I & Myself [Hell yeah! I did it!! :D]

Life: Wicked - Dancing Through Life [First of the "O_o"s. Still, yay, life goes well? ^ ^]

Mental Breakdown: Angelzoom - Into My Arms [Subdued breakdown, but breakdown, nonetheless...wow.]

Driving: Castlevania 64 - Bad Ending [XD XD XD *drives to pretty music* "^-^" *CRASH!* "....oops.. o.o;;;"]

Flashback: Tomokazu Seki - Flashback [...okay, what the hell. XD/O_o]

Getting Back Together: Jim's Big Ego - Stress [Hahaha...]

Wedding: Kingdom Hearts 2 - Under the Sea [Beach wedding?? ^-^;;]

Birth of Child: Vampire Princess Miyu - Evil God's Beat [Now this REALLY bodes well!! XD XD Might be fitting in certain respects, though. ^-^]

Final Battle: Chrono Cross - Reminiscence ~Unerasable Feelings~ [Slow-mo, emotional fight...]

Death Scene: Vampire Princess Miyu - Promise [More Miyu...fitting piece.]

Funeral Song: Gundam Wing - Joy to My Life [At first, "XD/O_o", but then, "Hey, yeah! Don't mourn my death at my funeral! Celebrate my life! Been saying that for years!" ^ ^]

End Credits: Tales of the Abyss ~Brilliant World~ - Kokou no Labyrinth [Nice!]

Sequel: Evanescence - Missing [Wait, what's this...a TWIST??? *gaspu!*]

So yeah. XD Happy Thanksgiving to all who are celebrating! ^ ^

Pointless Cosplay Entry, feel free to skip XD

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Mon, 26 Oct 2009 03:38:41 GMT

So! We went to the mall yesterday, and I picked up some Dist makeup that the cosmic forces of the universe confirmed as being perfect picks for him. Shimmery lavender eyeshadow with a rose logo whose shade name was "Drama", and a violet eye/lip pencil that had "Dist by Hot Topic" written on it. XD Yes, I went to Hot Topic. I am shamed. Oh well. That's all. ^ ^

Woolly bear caterpillars are so cute :3

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Thu, 08 Oct 2009 20:11:19 GMT

I found a woolly worm while I was heading for a class that turned out to be canceled. I took it into the student lounge to study biology with me. Other students pointed at it and went "aww" as it walked around on my notes. It is now my friend. :3

Anyway, couple things to report. First, an update on the last entry. Did a lot of talking and thinking, and due to various things mostly involving class requirements and campuses where they will be offered come spring, I've 95% decided that I'm going to go for an associates degree in sociology here, and then transfer it into a bachelor's program in psychology elsewhere. Gonna be looking at a school nearer Pittsburgh most likely, as I think that's probably where I'll be headed next. Much as I like my little community, it'd be nice to be somewhere with more people and a wider diversity of them. Maybe I can even find some anime/gaming clubs to meet some folks in. ^_^ Maybe even some *gasp* cosplayers??

Speaking of cosplay (I'll keep it short, I promise XD) I styled my Dist wig last night and it actually came out pretty well! I'm gonna get a stylist friend to touch it up hopefully, put otherwise, not bad! I'm pleased; I was very afraid of screwing it up. ^_^; So with the wig mostly done, I now have all the pieces I'd need for a lab version!Dist. Don't plan to actually cosplay that, but it makes me happy to know that I could. ^-^v I hope I can convince my roomie to go to Ohayocon at the end of January! Tekkoshocon is too far away! T^T Plus, from the forums, it looks like there will be a pretty large number of Tales folks there! DO WANT! Hehe.

Let's see...school goes well so far. Taking five courses, two of which are very easy. Intermediate algebra is going surprisingly well (maybe I'm finally getting the hang of it?), and biology lecture/lab...eh. I could be doing better, but also worse. It seems like most of the class is doing rather poorly. I think the teacher needs to refine his methods a bit, though I'm glad he has a sense of humor in class.

Still writing, still drawing. Usually when I should be working. XD Because that's when all my best work gets done! Law of the universe. And now I'm pretty much rambling, so I guess I'll stop here. ^ ^

I thought I was done with this...

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Thu, 01 Oct 2009 21:24:19 GMT

In life, it's important to know what it is you want, and what it is you want to do. I feel that I know what it is that I want. I know what I'm lacking right now, and what I would be happy having. It's not something that I can easily find in a small town like this, but I can do my best to look.

But what is it that I want to DO? They say to take what you love and make it your work. So what do I love? What is my passion?

I adore psychology. I think it's absolutely fascinating. The study of the mind and how it works, why things are associated, the analysis of drawings and things garnered from pictures and the like. It's amazingly interesting to me, especially abnormal psych.

I love animals. All kinds. I love interacting with them, and I seem to have some degree of an affinity with them, especially cats. I can't count how many times I've had typically unfriendly (or so claimed by their owners) cats and dogs come to me comfortably or allow me to interact with them, much to their owner's amazement.

I love to perform. I. Love. To. Perform. Acting, singing, even just silly, everyday things that will make people laugh. I live for reactions, and...it's difficult to explain to anyone who isn't also a performer, but the feeling of being before any number of people focused on you, tuned in directly to everything you say and every motion you make... The energy feeds into you like a high. You have your audiences' attention and sometimes even their very emotions in your hands. It's people allowing you to make them feel, and you thanking them for that gift in the best way you can. Acting is a category of its own within performing. I'm sometimes at my happiest whenever I can just step into someone else, to be them for a while, to think and feel things the way they would. That's the main reason I love cosplay so much (and why I'm in character 90% of the time whenever I do it). The same goes for role-playing. I simply adore it.

And so, from these three things, what can I do? Well, psychology has its own field, to be sure. However, I don't know that I'd want to be a counselor, unless it was possibly for children and/or young adults. A school or college counselor might be alright. I'm more interested in the studies and discoveries, though...does that mean I should be a researcher?

Animals...the main money-making fields there are veterinary, grooming or training, and none of those things really appeal to me. Wouldn't mind working at some kind of animal day-care, though!

And then there's acting, performing and theatre. I know that's really where my passion lies. It has since I was a child. I want to perform, I want to be around others that share in my passion for it, for plays and the whole art. And yet...I know what a difficult road that is. I also feel like if that was the road I was supposed to be on, I should have been on it by now. I'm not a teenager anymore. I'm not even early-twenties anymore. Is it too late for me to do it? What am I doing?? Where the heck should I be going? I'm floundering again, and I don't like it. I thought I had this figured out.

Finish out this semester...finally get your stupid AA after way too many years of part or no-timing it. There are people my age that already have a bachelor's or a master's, and I feel insufficient. Then again, there are also people my age that never graduated high-school, so eh. In a lot of ways, I feel like I should still be about twenty; I'm only now reaching the point of my life where most people reach when they're around twenty. Where did I lose those six missing years?

Ah, wait...I remember.

Biology Test and Cosplay Stuffs

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 23:33:09 GMT

Ugh...just got done with my biology quarter-term test. You know, it was supposed to be on 2 and a half chapters... and due to my bout of rappig flu, I only really got in enough study time for the two main chapters. I figured I'd be okay, as one would think that stuff relating to the remaining half-chapter would equal about a fifth of the test, and knowing 4/5ths of the material really well would have me pretty well on top of it. Yeah, that would make sense!

EXCEPT THAT HALF THE TEST WAS ON THAT HALF-CHAPTER ASDJFSDJFSDFKSJFSDJFK WHAT DX

Grrr...at least my professor's letting me make up the lab quiz I missed. Damn you to hell, rappig flu. *sigh* Oh well.

Uh...let's see...I got a funky idea for my Dist cosplay; instead of killing myself on his flower collar (and killing other people by accidentally stabbing them with it in close quarters XD), I was thinking I might try and find a white and hot pink boa, fold it over a couple times and attach it to the coat collar. Then it would make this nice feathery lining that kinda stands up but also dips back behind him too, onto his shoulders, sort of like how it does in that Dist and Anise Gaiden manga which no one reading this has even seen except maybe one or two people because you have lives and I don't and I freaking love that comic so damn much and THIS RUN-ON SENTENCE IS AWESOME!! :D And plus, come on, WHITE AND HOT PINK FEATHER BOA. You cannot get much more ultra-fabulous than that. *winks, blows kiss with purple lipstick*

*ahem* Anyway. More stuff to type up! Not much else to say for now. Laters!

bwee

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Wed, 09 Sep 2009 22:42:28 GMT

So I went to the doctor, and it turns out I actually caught one of the strains of swine flu going around the area. I'm entirely too amused by that. Bwahaha, I have the plague. XD Dammit, Peony, this is all your fault. Get your damn rappigs away from me.

Peony: Rappig?? ^-^
Kimi: NO.

Anyway, not much else to report. Resting up, doing my school work, and still playing Abyss with D. We've come up with so much great stuff on improv while playing that game. XD I've managed to remember and type some of it; maybe I'll have to post some of it sometime. Also, still writing and drawing a lot, due to Jade, Peo and Dist. ^ ^ I am productive! 8D

Okays, time for foods now. Beware the Heartless rappigs! They are coming for you... @o@

And happy triple-9 day!

Sickness and Songs

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Tue, 08 Sep 2009 14:43:07 GMT

Sick....sick sick sick...been sick since Friday. I thought I was doing a bit better today, so I ventured out to class, and while I made it through the first one, by the end I was feeling feverish, dizzy and nauseated, with headache and cough and all of the rest. Ugh...going to the doctor today. Yes... Dayquil, why have you forsaken me?

Been listening to the music artist Anggun lately. Three of her original songs have particularly struck me, those being "Dream of Me", "Snow on the Sahara" and "A Rose in the Wind". For the longest time, I've been trying to find a good song for my WoW character, Lleriyn (femme troll shaman), and I considered "Dream of Me" for it, as it's kind of mystical and tribal-like, but as soon as I thought of it, my femme troll mage Rhiann swept in and claimed it for herself. XD Then I heard "Snow on the Sahara", and I think it fits Ller pretty well. As for "A Rose on the Wind"...well, that reminds me of someone too, who just so happens to have "rose" in their name as well. Gee, who could it be? ^ ^; A lot of it matches very well...

Anyway, have some lyrics!

"Dream of Me"

"Hembusan bayu... antar dirimu..." (The wind blows... to take you away...)

Let me be the blue inside of the flame that you feel,
The heat to hold on 'til you are near.
(Barkan kujadi mentari) (Let me be your sun)
Keep me in your smile so sweet when you turn off the light,
And we'll be together in all our nights.
(Dan kuhangatkan semua mimpi) (And warm all your dreams)

*Dream of me~ Before you go, I'll show you just how.
I'll make you dream of me 'til night is over!
Dream of me, just a breath away in the dark...
I'll make you dream of me...come to me now!

We move so free and easy just like it should be.
Just you can give me all that I need...
(Hanya dirimu yang kunanti) (Only you that I long for)
I'll fly...find my way back to you in your deepest hours of sleep.
A night ride to my favorite fantasy...!
(Semua keinginan hati) (All my desire)

*Repeat

My desire never ends; will you meet me where the shadows blend?
Light the stars up in my sky, got to know that you are still mine...

*Repeat

Take me with you when you go, when you get so lonely and so cold,
Hold on to me every night... Close your eyes, let your love go flying!
Let your love go flying!

"Snow on the Sahara"

Only tell me that you still want me here
When you wander off out there...
To those hills of dust and hard winds that blow
In that dry white ocean alone...
(Lost out in the desert... You are lost out in the desert...)
But to stand with you in a ring of fire...
I'll forget the days gone by.
I'll protect your body and guard your soul
From mirages in your sight.
(Lost out in the desert...)

*If your hopes scatter like the dust across your track,
I'll be the moon that shines on your path.
The sun may blind our eyes; I'll pray the skies above,
For snow to fall on the Sahara...
If that's the only place where you can leave your doubts,
I'll hold you up and be your way out.
And if we burn away, I'll pray the skies above,
For snow to fall on the Sahara.

Just a wish and I will cover your shoulders
With veils of silk and gold...
When the shadows come and darken your heart,
Leaving you with regrets so cold...
(Lost out in the desert...)

*Repeat

"A Rose in the Wind"

I was born at daybreak to the road I did take, trembling as the ground shakes
Under my feet, cracked in the stone heat.
Never ending motion, way across the ocean, into your devotion...
Long have I gone, so far from my home...

What to do with this love that I'm in?
I have given you all of my soul...
Flying all my life like a rose in the wind,
Tell me why I am always alone...
(On my way home...)

Dreaming always begins... Find a door that's opening; something there is shining...
The light in your eyes when you were all mine...
All alone as I wake, moving in a new place, shivering as I trace
A road of my own, cut by the deep cold...

What to do with this love that I'm in?
I have given you all of my soul...
Flying all my life like a rose in the wind,
Tell me why I am always alone...
Hang on to me tight, and a rose in the wind
Will be with you wherever you go...
(All the way back home...)

Can I take you back there? Drifting on the warm air, say you'll follow anywhere...
All of our nights, into the jade skies...
I'll be true to you, flying over the moon, lying in the bamboo,
I'll always know the light in the window...

What to do with this love that I'm in?
I have given you all of my soul...
Flying all my life like a rose in the wind,
Tell me why I am always alone...
(Alone...)

Complications

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Mon, 31 Aug 2009 21:21:55 GMT

So...

Apparently I can't take my college algebra class because I haven't taken intermediate algebra. So I have to take that class this semester and then take regular algebra along with statistics next semester in order to get the psych degree by then. Rrrgh. x.x I'll post my schedule once I know it for sure. Grah.

Got some more stuff for the apartment today. God, we need a sofa. XD We're also working on getting some internets there. For now, my only online time is at school. Stuff and fun times! Alrighty, back to work.

Apartments, School and Tales of the Abyss

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 18:22:37 GMT

Hey there, friendly friends and neighbors, it's time for another long-overdue update.

1.) Apartment - Well, it was a nice summer, and my roommate and I have found ourselves a new place! We found out a friend of the family happened to have a little two-story building that they rent from time to time, and they were kind enough to accept us as renters. The first floor is all garage and storage, but the second floor is a very nice, spacious apartment that we have moved into. It's within walking distance to a fair amount, including some places that might even serve for our employment needs, and best of all, we've got the whole building to ourselves! Woo! =D So yeah, that's all good stuff. Now we're just dealing with the "getting settled in and situated" craziness. Yay, stress! XD

2.) School - Oh god, kill me now, but yes, it's back-to-school time. The course load this semester is actually not bad, but due to the subjects, is going to feel like a lot more than it actually is. Chief culprits of this being biology lecture and lab (I haven't had a college lab class before, so hopefully it will be enjoyable), and.....college algebra. Algebra. Again. Why can I not escape you, algebra...? Why must you follow me everywhere I go, tormenting my dreams, casting a shadow on all my aspirations and threatening to throw them all into the abyss by way of your utter incomprehensibility...? I hate you, math. I hate you so. very. much. Somebody help me. x_x *cries*

3.) Tales of the Abyss - Speaking of the abyss, and in much less stress-inducing news, I'm a little late for it, but I have recently fallen rock solid for the game Tales of the Abyss. ^-^ It's fun to play, has good characters, a neat story, a really fascinating world system, and just overall is very, very win.

I have especially fallen for the Keterburg group; that bunch has grabbed hold of me like nothing has for a very long time, so much so that's it's surprised even me. Jade, Peony, Nephry, and especially, ESPECIALLY that certain one by the name of Dist the Rose, a.k.a. Saphir Wyon Neis... That one's actually taken up residence pretty strongly in my head of late, and more than that, he, Jade and Peony actually have me WRITING again! It's the first I've been so driven to write stuff, even just little things, in AGES! So cheers to them for that! ^_^ Even if most of what I've been coming up with makes Saphy want to murder me in my sleep. XD Maybe I'll have to start posting some drabbles and ficclets behind lj-cuts. ^-^

ALSO because of this group, I have a drive to start attending cons again! D has had the desire to cosplay Jade ever since she first played the game, and I would absolutely ADORE playing Dist along with her! So, I may be calling on the services of those with leet sewing-fu sometime in the near future, as mine is very fail. XD Would anyone else be interested in making an Abyss group with us sometime? Kira, I remember you saying you might want to. If you still do, BE PEONY!!! ^o^ For the love of GOD, be Peony!! With me as Dist and D as Jade, we'd have the whole trio and it would be freaking awesome and the fun barrier will break! XD

In any case, that about all sums it up for now. *phew* I actually started into this entry really stressed out, but I feel better now. Just can't let that algebra get me down. I can do it. Catch ya later, all!

Back in PA

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Sun, 07 Jun 2009 02:04:33 GMT

Guess it's time I updated again, though I don't have too much to say. ^ ^; As of June 1st, I've been back in Pennsylvania with one of my roommates. My dad and his fiancee helped us move, and the drive back home was uneventful. Nice weather all the way. :D Other than that, not too much to tell. We're currently staying at my mother's house, helping her out and doing a lot of cleaning, while we look into what places might be good for us to find work. Guess this is a transition period. ^ ^ In any case, things are going well.

In addition, one tiny little Slayers related thing: Page 19 of part 5 of the Evo-R manga. ^ ^
http://www.onemanga.com/Slayers_Evolution-R/5/19/

Super-cool picture of Xelloss?: Awesome.
Watching the strikes against the fanon view of Xelloss and the high-ranking Mazoku in general continue to pile up?: Absolutely priceless.
So. Very. Pleased.

Now let's just hope fans don't discount it just because it's going against the stuff in TRY. Even though TRY went against stuff in Next and the novels. Because, you know, someone who's completely, indisputably, remorselessly wicked and evil just 'cuz they damn well wanna be is just SO much _COOLER_ than an actual, multisided character that's also a servant of destruction in the balance scheme of the world. And it's so much easier to write.

Okay, /rant. XD Ground well traveled, I'm afraid, and I apologize for that. ^ ^; Anyway, I'm out. Good to be home!

WTF Weather

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Wed, 13 May 2009 15:02:32 GMT

It hailed here yesterday.
In Florida.
During May.
It was hot at the time; the ice melted very fast after it hit.
lolwut?

An Actual Update? What??

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Thu, 26 Mar 2009 15:09:10 GMT

Well, friends and neighbors, I thought it might be about time to actually report on what's going on in my life for the select few people who might actually care. XD

As most of you should know, I've spent this past year living in Florida with two of my best friends. Overall, I'd say it's been a good experience, but I'm planning on moving back to Pennsylvania when the lease is up at the end of May. One of my friends is going to be coming with me, as she wants to try out life up north for a while. The two of us will ideally be joining a third friend up there, and finding a place somewhere as convenient for the three of us as we can manage. Right now we're looking at the Johnstown area, but we may end up nearer to Pittsburgh as well, depending.

As there's been little to speak of on the job front thus far (and now I'm going to be moving in a few months ^ ^;), I've started doing some volunteering work for the Orange County Animal Services and Humane Society. I'm mostly doing general things like exercising the dogs and socializing other animals, but it's fun, and it gets me out of the house. XD I've met some nice folks, and it'll be something to put on a resume if I ever want to try and get into some animal-related work in the future. ^ ^

When I get back to PA, I think it's very likely that I'll be returning to school and actually finishing out a degree. I'm 25, and I think I finally have a bead on what I'd like to be doing. While acting is still my joy, I've finally come to accept that it would be a very difficult road to follow to have it as a career, and that it doesn't HAVE to be a career to be done. I can always do that as a hobby and be just as happy. I've decided that I'm going to pursue a degree in psychology, as the subject has always fascinated me, and I think I would enjoy the field. While I don't plan on being a practicing therapist, working at a mental health center with others is something I think I would find interesting and enjoyable. I'd especially like to study child and abnormal psych, both out of personal interest and for the number of opportunities to which either could lead. There are certainly lots of fascinating things to learn about the mind! Who knows? Maybe I could eventually end up studying and/or working with psychics or something like that. ^ ^

In any case, that's pretty much the lowdown on the current and the planned for right now, and from here, the view looks pretty good. We'll see what happens!

You Were There...

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Mon, 16 Feb 2009 07:38:26 GMT

The island bathes in the sun's bright rays;
Distant hills wear a shroud of grey.
A lonely breeze whispers in the trees...
Sole witness to history.

Fleeting memories rise from the shadows of my mind...
Sing "nonomori" - Endless corridors...
Say "nonomori" - Hopeless warriors...
You were there...you were there.

Am I forever dreaming? How to define the way I'm feeling...
You were there... Countless visions, they haunt me in my sleep.
You were there... Though forgotten, all promises we keep.

Slaves to our destiny, I recall a melody...
Sing "nonomori" - Seasons lit with gold...
Say "nonomori" - Legends yet unfold...
You were there...you were there.

Happiness follows sorrow, only believing in tomorrow.
You were there... Countless visions, they haunt me in my sleep.
You were there... Though forgotten, all promises we keep.

The island bathes in the sun's bright rays;
Distant hills wear a shroud of grey.
A lonely breeze whispers in the trees...
Sole key to this mystery...

A New Year

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Thu, 01 Jan 2009 21:06:25 GMT

Well, 2008 is over. I'm not sure where it went. What happened in it? I think I lost it somewhere. Nah, that's not really true. Got my driver's license (yes, only just this year. Sad, I know), had a college semester away from home, got to know several folks in the 'kin community much better, moved down to Florida (which is still going well, though the job market sucks), and as always, experienced many new stories through various movies, books and games. My highest recommendations game-wise are Okami and Shadow of the Colossus. Both of those games are pure art.

Gods willing, 2009 will see me employed, among friends and/or family, improved at what few spirit/psychic abilities I have, and with any luck, maybe just a little closer to knowing what the hell I'm doing. I think that's sufficient for goals for one year. Only time will tell what will come to be, but, to anyone looking back on this entry from sometime in the future, I hope it's brought you all you've wished for.

Happy New Year, all. Here's hopin'. ^ ^

A Moment of Fangirl

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 11:34:52 GMT

So, I was looking through some of my Slayers pics the other night, when, coming upon a scan of one of the TRY pencilboards, I was suddenly struck by the familiarity of the pose Xelloss was in. A few blinks, a quick double-check, and a nauseating amount of idiotic fangirl squealing later, the linked-to picture resulted. ^ ^; Now, either this is an extreme coincidence, or it ISN'T one, and either way...

Parody-turned-Cosplay Sketch Idea ^ ^

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Mon, 17 Nov 2008 15:41:51 GMT

Alrighty, some knowledge of Slayers (particularly Slayers TRY) is required for this one. ^ ^;

So, there's this other song from "Wicked" that I'm quite fond of called "What is this Feeling? / Loathing". The song is essentially Glinda and Elphaba (the Wicked Witch) singing about how they can't believe they've ended up as roommates at their magic school, and how much they hate each other. A particular line near the beginning sparked my creativity (Glinda's attempt at finding a polite way to describe Elphaba), and I ended up rewriting some of the song to make fit as a duet to be performed by Filia and Xelloss. XD I shared it with my dear friend D-chan, who loved it, and suggested that it would make a perfect cosplay sketch for at a con. Soooo, if we can put the costumes together, we may just have to do this at whatever con we go to together next. XD

Anyway, here is "Loathing" as performed by Xelloss and Filia. ^ ^ Please listen to the original song while reading this version!: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WZQVSxXTCjg

*Filia and Xelloss walk on stage, holding the gold orbs from the marriage temple.*

Filia: *speaking inwardly* "To your excellence, the grand high Saichoro..."
Xell: *same* "My exalted Ladyship..."

*they look at the orbs, then at each other, then out to the audience*

X & F: "There's been some confusion over partnering for this...
Xell: "But of course, I'll get the job done!"
Filia: "But of course, I'll rise above it!"
X & F: ...For I know that's how you'd want me to respond...yes. >.>
"There's been some confusion, for you see, my partner is...
Filia: "...unusually and exceedingly peculiar and altogether quite impossible to describe..." -.-+
Xell: "......blonde." ^ ^;

Filia: What is this feeling, so sudden and new...
Xell: I felt the moment I laid eyes on you?
Filia: My pulse is rushing... o.o;
Xell: My head is reeling... x.x;
Filia: My face is flushing...! o.o;;;
X & F: What is this feeling, fervid as a flame?? Does it have a name? Yes.......!
Filia: Loathing!
Xell: Huh? o.o;
Filia: Un-a-dul-ter-a-ted loathing!
Xell: What? o.o;;
Filia: For your face, your voice, your clothing!
Xell: Er...can't we just--... >.>;
Filia: I loathe it all!
Xell: Eh heh.. ^ ^;
Filia: Ev'ry little trait, however small, makes my very flesh begin to crawl, with simple, utter loathing...
Xell: Ah...there's a strange exhilaration... >.>;
Filia: In such total detestation!!
Xell: Eh... ^ ^;;
X & F: It's so pure and so strong...!
Xell: Though I have to say this came on fast... >.>;
Filia: Still, I do believe that it can last. -.-+
Xell: So you will be...? ^ ^;;
Filia: Loathing, loathing you,
X & F: Your/my whoooole liiiiife long! ^ ^;/-.-+

Dragons: *to Filia* Miss ul Copto, you are just too good! s.s
Mazoku: *to Xell* How can you stand her?? I don't think I could... >.>;
Dragons: He's a terror!!
Mazoku: She's a Tartar!
Dragons: We don't mean to show a bias, but Miss ul Copto, you're a martyr!! S.S
Filia: Well, these things ARE sent to try us... -.-;; (Mazoku: *gag*)
Dragons & Mazoku:
Our poor priest(ess), forced to take side with someone so disgusticified!!
We just want to tell you, we're all on your side!
We share your loathing!
Xell: Now, wait-- ^ ^;;
Filia: What is this feeling, so sudden and new?
Chorus: Un-a-dul-ter-a-ted loathing!
Xell: Ano... ^ ^;;
Filia: I felt the moment I laid eyes on you!
Chorus: For his/her face, his/her voice, his/her clothing!
Xell: That's not-- ^ ^;;
Filia: My pulse is rushing, my head is reeling... X.x;
Chorus: We loathe it all!
X & F: Oh, what is this feeling?? ^ ^;;/ x.X;
Chorus: Ev'ry little trait, however small,
X & F: Does it have a name??
Chorus: Makes our very flesh begin to crawl!
X & F: Yes......!
All: Ahhhhhhh.....!
Filia: Loathing! (Chorus: Loathing!)
Xell: There's a strange exhilaration... ^ ^;; (Chorus: Loathing!)
Filia: In such total detestation!! (Chorus: Loathing!)
X & F: It's so pure and so strong! (Chorus: So strong...!)
Though I do admit, it came on fast,
Still, I do believe that it can last!
Filia: And I will be...
Chorus: Loathing... (Xell: >.>;)
Filia: For forever...
Chorus: Loathing... (Xell: ^ ^;)
Filia: Truly, deeply, loathing you...! (Chorus: Loathing you...!)
Filia: ...my whole life long! -.-+
Chorus: Loathing, un-a-dul-ter-a-ted loathing...!

Xell: >.> ... *sidle/sneaks over to Filia, glomps her* ^-^ Mmm!
Filia: EEEK!!!! 0.0;;;

FIN~! ^ ^

Alternately, we could also do this with Xelloss more in his TRY mode and thus singing Elphaba's part straight, but I like it this way as well. Thoughts? ^ ^

The Greatest Mystery in Azeroth...

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Fri, 14 Nov 2008 22:18:42 GMT

Okay, so I know this one will only make any sense to a rather limited audience, but oh well. ^ ^;

The other night, while playing some late-night WoW, there occurred a great deal of epic on the part of our own dear Tamei the Death-Mage, and I felt that it ought to be shared. ^ ^ I will warn now, though, that unless you have played World of Warcraft, and spent time leveling Horde-side in the Barrens zone, this will make NO sense to you AT ALL. But, if you meet the above criteria, read on... XD

It all started with lore knowledge, and innocent teasing about an upcoming test on it...

[Kynashi]: Describe the Economic, Social, Political and Psychological impact of Mankrik's wife being lost.
[Alakaya]: roflmao
[Akimia]: ...sadly, I would so jump on that and actually do it. XD
[Kynashi]: that's a 4 page response easily
[Tamei]: At the time, the social-ecological health of the Barrens was little better than a Ray Bradbury short story; twelve-year-olds killing and consuming one another's brain cells in a degraded, digital Lord of the Flies fashion.
[Akimia]: omg... XD
[Tamei]: During this age of great conflict and poor communication among the denizens of this harsh crucible from which would emerge suchgreat minds as Doomroxxor and Lamb...
[Kynashi]: lol
[Tamei]: ....a lone man stood at the northern crossroads, imploring travelers to search for his missing wife. His harrowing tale and the mystery of her whereabouts riveted the attention of generations of braincells before they were brutally murdered by Quilboar.
[Tamei]: This is his story.

And so it began...

[Tamei]: Why this man sent so many hapless idiots to their fates brings to mind a question, a thought in passing.
[Tamei]: The mission he relayed to these ill-fated players shaped the destiny of a faction, and yet the question remains: why did Mankrik not search for his wife himself?
[Kynashi]: I take it back
[Tamei]: The answer may be more gruesome than most may be prepared to believe.
[Kynashi]: could write a 25-page term paper on this
[Akimia]: A book. Easy.
[Tamei]: A far-reaching conspiracy hidden in the shadows of alleyways from Ratchet to the mighty citadel of Illidan himself.
[Akimia]: Damn....I wanna read this now. >.>
[Tamei]: The answer lies in the inscription upon a common, everyday object most keep in their inventories...the [Hearthstone].
[Tamei]: Please note that the curved rune upon the Hearthstone resembles that of a quilboar's tusk, which Mankrik demands you collect many of.
[Tamei]: Why is this? Why is he more concerned about ivory quilboar tusks than the welfare of his missing wife?
[Tamei]: The mysterious disappearance of the Quilboar's god, Agamaggan, during the invasion of the Burning Legion is a thousand-year-old unsolved mystery.
[Tamei]: Queen Azshara was known to demand extravagant trinkets; could it be that she had him killed and used the Legion to cover up his death?
[Tamei]: This would begin a long practice of culling the quilboar, which had to be performed in secret, so as not to attract the attention of the druids.

At this point, even I couldn't help but feel unsettled by the possible conspiracy being unearthed...

[Akimia]: ...did they actually kill her...? o.o I mean, did the quilboar actually kill Mankrik's wife??
[Tamei]: That...is the question left unanswered.
[Kynashi]: so the quilboar are the fall guys
[Akimia]: Maybe it's all just a ploy...an excuse to commit genocide in the name of avenging a crime which was, in fact, never committed?
[Tamei]: Perhaps she knew too much about her husband's involvement in the ivory trafficking ring...he could not risk her going to Sergra Darkthorn to voice her concerns about the mass disappearances of quilboar.
[Akimia]: So he killed her...and blamed the quilboar...two birds with one stone...
[Akimia]: Damn, it all makes sense now...!
[Kynashi]: and now he's reaping in the profits
[Tamei]: And to further cover it up, he sent travelers to search for her, all the while shipping the tusks brought back in crates to Ratchet.
[Akimia]: *nod nod nod*

This plot thickened...

[Tamei]: But what is the Hearthstone's place in all of this?
[Tamei]: Why is it that every player is given one upon their coming into the world?
[Tamei]: What is the significance of this small bauble?
[Tamei]: Is it merely a convenience? Or does is mark them as an unknowing member of a secret society?
[Tamei]: Many go their lives without once giving a second glance at this plain item.
[Tamei]: In truth, it is a key to a mystery that runs far deeper than the disappearance of one orcish woman...
[Tamei]: One that each innkeeper is privy to, yet their secrets they are sworn to never divulge.
[Tamei]: Attempting to interview one, I was given a strange bag with a mask.
[Akimia]: XD
[Tamei]: I studied this strange artifact and concluded that it was designed to resemble the face of an orc woman.
[Tamei]: Coincidence? I think not.
[Tamei]: When shown a Hearthstone, innkeepers behave in uniform fashion. Going along with their little game, I discovered that the Hearthstone would return me to that same innkeeper.
[Tamei]: Perhaps I know too much, and they are keeping an eye on me.
[Akimia]: Wait...what are the hearthstones made of....? o.o
[Tamei]: If you will look at them closely, they seem to be constructed of a polished white substance, not unlike...ivory.
[Tamei]: With this, coupled with the rune on the stones, we come to the conclusion that Mankrik is part of an even larger organization that crafts these so-called "Hearth stones".
[Tamei]: Where do these go when they leave their makers' hands? The starting zones of factions all over the world.

And thickened...

[Tamei]: Working backwards, we can conclude that Illidan Stormrage himself was once issued one of these selfsame Hearthstones...
[Akimia]: o.o
[Tamei]: ...which now makes its home in the halls of the great Black Temple.
[Tamei]: One will note that the rune on the Hearthstone also matches the markings on Illidan's war-banner exactly...
[Tamei]: Be sure to read the truths behind all this and more in my new book, "Da Mankrik Code", published by Samophlange co. :D
[Tamei]: I'm done for now. XD

....or WAS she...?

[Tamei]: Skyshatter. A name which evokes revulsion among the denizens of Shadowmoon valley. What could his connection to Illidan mean to the greater mystery of hearthstones and the unsolved case of Mankrik's ill-fated wife?
[Akimia]: Oh god. XD

New clues seemed to pop up everywhere...

[Alko]: KIMI HATES ON ME!
[Akimia]: WE'RE EVEN NOW!
[Tamei]: Bad Kimi! No cookie for you!
[Akimia]: At least I can rez you. ;)
[Alko]: SHE HATES ON ME FOR MY ARGENT DAWN STAMINA!
[Tamei]: The Argent Dawn. An organization that stands as a bastion of order in the chaotic ruins of what once was the Kingdom of Lordaeron.
[Akimia]: XD XD XD
[Tamei]: The Ashbringer: mythical weapon or the last remaining piece of the puzzle?

And I do mean everywhere... >.>

[Alko]: I LOVE IT!!
[Alko]: TO FIGHT A BOSS BEHIND CLOSED DOORS!!
[Tamei]: Alko. A rogue of many talents. Some say...too talented.
[Akimia]: *DIES* XD
[Tamei]: His uncanny ability to mimic the core skills of every other class in the game might be called overpowered.
[Akimia]: After all, such talent is usually only reserved for beings of such power as...Illidan Stormrage...
[Tamei]: Blizzard's official stance on the mystery is that of a government in denial.
[Alko]: "Working as intended."
[Tamei]: Tune in next week when we investigate the Abominable Yeti. Annoying quest mob, or vicious timesink?
[Tamei]: You decide.

And so at last, it ended....BUT FOR HOW LONG?? @o@

And, oops! I lied about this post being for the thing I wrote based on the other Wicked song I mentioned in the last entry. ^ ^; Oh well! I guess another time. :3

A Different Kind of "Wicked"

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Sun, 09 Nov 2008 07:57:45 GMT

So, while I haven't actually read the book or seen the musical yet, I've been hearing a lot about "Wicked: the Untold Story of the Witches of Oz" lately, and I gotta say, I'm pretty intrigued. I find the concept behind it to be incredibly creative, as well as extremely bold on the author's part, considering how solid and classic the original tale of the Wizard of Oz is. Somehow, this alternate take on the Wicked Witch of the West just hits somewhere very right in me. ^ ^ I'm also loving some of the songs from the musical, specifically "Defying Gravity" and "What is This Feeling?". The "Defying Gravity" scene is actually powerful enough to bring me to tears. Between the words to the song and their significance to the workings of that world, and the emotion delivered behind them, it is...absolutely...incredible.

Oh, I could go on and on, but instead, just see for yourself. This particular clip is (imho) the BEST version of the scene I've yet found, and there's even a little intro to it, explaining what's going on. ^ ^

ELPHABA:
Something has changed within me... Something is not the same.
I'm through with playing by the rules of someone else's game.
Too late for second-guessing. Too late to go back to sleep.
It's time to trust my instincts, close my eyes, and leap...!
It's time to try defying gravity! I think I'll try defying gravity,
And you can't pull me down!

GLINDA: Can't I make you understand; you're having delusions of grandeur!

ELPHABA:
I'm through accepting limits, 'cuz someone says they're so!
Some things I cannot change, but 'til I try, I'll never know!
Too long, I've been afraid of losing love I guess I've lost...
Well, if that's love, it comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner, by defying gravity... Kiss me goodbye; I'm defying gravity!
And you can't pull me down!

Unlimited... Together, we're unlimited!
Together we'll be the greatest team there's ever been.
Glinda, dreams the way we planned 'em...

GLINDA: If we work in tandem...
BOTH: There's no fight we cannot win!
Just you and I, defying gravity! With you and I, defying gravity,
ELPHABA: They'll never bring us down!

GLINDA: I hope you're happy, now that you're choosing this.
ELPHABA: You too. I hope it brings you bliss...
BOTH: I really hope you get it, and you don't live to regret it!
I hope you're happy in the end! I hope you're happy, my friend...

ELPHABA:
So! If you care to find me, look to the Western sky!
As someone told me lately: "Everyone deserves the chance to fly!"
And if I'm flying solo, at least I'm flying free!
To those who'd ground me, take a message back from me!
Tell them how I am defying gravity! I'm flying high, defying gravity!
And soon I'll MATCH them in renown!
And NOBODY in all of Oz, no "Wizard" that there IS or WAS,
Is ever gonna bring me down!

GLINDA: I hope you're happy...!
CITIZENS OF OZ: Look at her, she's wicked! GET HER!
ELPHABA: Bring me...
CITIZENS OF OZ: No one mourns the wicked! So we've got to bring her...
ALL: Down!

Y'know, this entry was originally gonna be for posting an amusing little stroke of creativity I had with the other song I mentioned, "What is This Feeling?" ^ ^; Woo for getting carried away by passion! I think this entry's long enough without adding that in too, so I'll put that up next time. ^ ^ Hope you enjoy!

Go vote!

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Tue, 04 Nov 2008 17:24:29 GMT

GO VOTE GO VOTE GO VOTE GO VOTE GO VOTE GO VOTE!!!!

This friendly reminder has been brought to you by the Pennsylvania/Florida Society of Kimi-chans That Want You to Go and Vote. Preferably for Obama. Please. For the Love of God. x.x But Anyway...

GO VOTE!!!

Eee! ^-^

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Sun, 24 Aug 2008 11:48:25 GMT

They made Xelloss shorter in Revo!! That just delights me to no end! ^ ^
/end pointless entry XD

A cool little tidbit from the first Slayers movie.

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 00:56:42 GMT

(Scene is Lina and Nahga confronting the Mazoku named Joirok/Joyrock/however you want to spell it, who has just said that he's having fun with them. Well, he calls them "omoshiroi" which is essentially "interesting", but generally in an attractive way. He also says they probably have a good flavor, too. Anyway...)

Lina: "Omoshiroi"...? Don't you Mazoku LIVE by feeding on human fear and suffering??
Joirok: There are all sorts of humans out there, and each has a different flavor. Likewise, every Mazoku has an individual appetite. You see, each of the various decadent emotions of humans are like exotic, delightful seasonings to us.

This was just something I'd forgotten about, and it pleased me to see it, as it matches perfectly that particular aspect of the Mazoku from the Red World I'm familiar with. While some Mazoku are obviously most partial to the "taste" of pain, fear, and other negative feelings, those aren't the only ones that are appealing to them. Every single emotion has its own taste, and each Mazoku has their own preference in which emotions they like best. Plus, this would also seem to imply that they don't "feed" on emotion, per se, but simply enjoy the empathic flavors of them.

Pretty cool. I'm glad that way of things is in the canon. ^ ^

"On until however long, it begins right here and now!"

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Sat, 02 Aug 2008 07:02:26 GMT

Hokay! Well, thought it was about time to talk about Revo again. We're up through episode 5 now, and the first plot arc seems to be kicking in. D-chan and I've got some theories coming together thanks in part to our obsessive knowledge of minor characters from the novels. ^ ^; Though, if the writers pull one certain thing that it looks like they might, they're going to be losing ALL respect from the fanbase, guaranteed. -.-

Post-Episode 5 Theories:
Okayz, so liek, tehy're bringing Rezo back into teh story, and he was totally like visiting Pokota's kingdom way back when, probably to get their infos on Zanaffar lolz. While he wuz there, tehy said "priest plz help us? we is dying from plague lol" And he sealed tehm in crystals so they wouldn't die from the plague and said, "There, I helped you, lololol! ^.^" But he's ded and teh spell's still in place, so he probably bound teh spell to somting other tehn himself becuz taht would have been noobish, lol. So, teh spell will stay until whatever it's bound to is gone, roflcopter. Or he's secretly still alive lololol murder the writers.

Anywayz, now teh Marquis lady (who is from inspector Filler-Man Crayon's kingdom), her maid/bodyguard Ozelle and Dukris the tiger-dude want to summon Zanaffar, probably so tehy can farm him for his bones to make l33t purple magic-resist armorz, lol. And tho Xelloss is in their group atm, he's probably thinking, "WTF, you noobs. I'mma ninja ur epix, bubble-hearth because I'm a haxxor and tehn go join and/or gank Zuuma cuz he's Seigram's old partner from teh novels rofl. ^-^"

Also, Zelgadis now has Xelloss-radar and also ninja skillz because he's been dating D-chan in teh off-season, lololol.

Also also, if Copy Rezo's still tangled up with Zanaffar when they summon him, then that's gonna make ALL kinds of fun. x.x

...And that just about sums it up. XD Guess we'll see how accurate we are in the weeks to come. ^ ^

Stupid brain...be quiet already.

saturnsenshi@hotmail.com — Wed, 09 Jul 2008 23:42:26 GMT

After reading various pages devoted to the Mazoku and their workings in various worlds, including Mordax's essays, I feel this gnawing "should" to write my own thing on how the system works in the version of the Red World that my group knows. It's eating at me, and it actually hurts a bit, so I may have to do it, just to get it to stop.